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09 February 2012 @ 09:21 pm
Had my sinus surgery today.. 3rd one  

But this one was a different type of surgery,
I was awake and numbed up but honestly I felt EVERYTHING.

It was pretty traumatic hearing the cracking of metal against the bone in my nose.
Horrifying I felt like I was getting a lobotomy! tbh

I was so fucking nervous I took 2 xanax.. the mg I take is really high so its equivalent to 4 regular ones.
And If I didn't, I'm positive I would have either passed out or have a panic attack.

I had needles and metal, suctions, an inflated balloon type device up my nose/head/behind my eye.
Wide Awake!!!
it was awful. But I must've looked cool on the outside because they were all like you handled it like a boss! most grown men haven't handled it as well as you!  lol.
I was in so much pain I honestly think it didn't numb up.. and the dr. said there was a chance of that.
I have a high pain tolerance but that was too much.. traumatizing. 

Glad to be home

xoxo ur local biracial butterfly bitch

Current Mood: lethargiclethargic
ex_lovedisc on February 11th, 2012 08:54 am (UTC)
That is so fucking awful. I'm seriously staring at your post with my most open wide nearly crying. I would not have made it one second in that situation. I would have flailed and screamed.
Melissa Teazoom_z00m on February 18th, 2012 03:30 am (UTC)
omg I'm sorry bb! I should've put it behind a cut. I'm lucky I took that xanax at that point I was just like ok let's do this and get it over with!!
Maybe it wasn't that bad but I'm no baby when it comes to these things so idk!it was pretty intense though lol ♥